How to get self respect again?

Posted On Nov 5, 2019 By admin With Comments Off

I merely realized that i have 0 self respect. It’s not confidence or soul honour difficulties. I examined inside my soul today and realized that i had no self respect for years. My story is that my girlfriend got pregnant 3 years ago. We are simply 19 at that point but decided to keep it( we’ve been toether since age 14 ). So i left my job and went to a factory( for more fund) where i’m still directing 12 hours per day 5-6 times per week. So back to the girl. After she got pregnant we have’nt had gender( only two times in two years !), our daughter was born, i was all week and referring my free time with two daughters and her. As occasion gone by i felt less passion for me from her. She never kissed me, i was begging for sexuality and she always disavowed. I did’nt even realized she hated me so much better. Supaya “ive spent” 2 years with her like this. Lost all my friends in this time. Last time in september i was going home from work at 6pm, she and the daughter were in the playground near the house. I said i’m gonna joint them, i’ll simply discontinue my knapsack. So i went to the flat and “ive heard” her phones messenger audios. I checked the phone and it was a her bestfriend( who happens to be a male ), i started reading the themes they were talking about how good it was years ago when they were f *** n every weekend. I nearly collapsed, but i started scrolling up in the words and it turned out that she actually has another man besides me, and she enjoys him so much. I grabbed as countless clothes of mine as i could and i gotta go back to my parents room. I was seeing my “daughter for some weekends a year ago, however did a test and she is’nt even my daughter. Since then i only go to work and is present in my berthed playing games and watching successions. This been my totality life for the last year. I do not know now how to approach other women, how to make friends, how to is everything that “normal” parties do. So yes i only recognized it today that i am now one of those people that used to creep me out. I feel like my biggest problem is that i do not respect myself at all. How could i change that? Thank you if you took the time to read this whole