need assistance please

Posted On Apr 1, 2020 By admin With Comments Off

I dont even know where to start. I just really need your responses. i have written this upright so many times, and get few of them.

First of all, i just want to mention that this post is going to include questions about mental health, and if your response is going to be to see a therapist really dont even bother replying. Its not about money, there are some other reasons and also i dont think that this problem is to an provide where i need one. I are truly appreciate each and every respond of yours, since it can help a lot.

Basically. I developed a thought that theres something wrong with me. I think that its on an instinctive rank, like even if im not thinking about it, my actions still can be affected by this mindset. It doesnt see me chilled or anything like that, well merely me being paranoid, or time a teen. But around couple of months ago, the estimate was coming. It used to come and go but didnt use to bother me this is something that, maybe for a period max.

But couple of months ago i started considering that i might be on the spectrum. The thing is that if being logical, it doesnt make sense at all, since i got no manifestations of it at all. But for example, hours ago i literally believed that it was true, regardless the logic.

Okay as i said it started months ago, i even remember the day. The next day i had uni, basically it riled me for that day and after that it went away. Being around beings emphatically cures, because i dont feel any different, i even tend to think that im above other persons and even seperate myself from them.

Basically, yea it hasnt inconvenienced me for probabily months, and then the one month break came. I, for particular reasonableness, culminated up with no close friends( it happened probably two years ago, when i fell out with my school friends ). Even tho at uni i literally got to know to everyone, became the most popular, cuz i definitely dont struggle socially, cuz of different factors i did not manage to acquire close friends. I mean we still talk to each other, but not outside uni, we only went out couple of durations, thats it. But yea, the point is that i resolved up alone.

Have Been alone the whole month, and certainly it doesn’t facilitate my paranoia. I havent felt absolutely peacful ever since. This thought kills me. Its not that im depressed, but i question myself a lot, and as i said i even sometimes believe that i have the condition.

I dont even know what to do anymore. My merely is to be hoped, is the break to end, tho it happens in 2 շաբաթ. But what should i do till then? My mind impedes clinging on my negative storages, and tries to somehow connect it to the condition, and no matter how ludicrous it is i have moments as i said where i totally start believeing it. Well, its not that im at home all the time. I go to gym everyday, but undoubtedly it doesnt facilitate much.

I don’t know what it is. Am i psychopathic cuz of loneliness? I haven’t felt like a part of group in a while as i said? Or is it time my senility? I just turned 18. No matter how many times i tell myself that this thought doesnt make any sense, i just cant help but believe it sometimes.

Being around peope, hopefully will solve this problem, because it is preparing me maniac. As i said the first time i considered it was months ago, and after being around people, feeling that im no different, the conceive dissapeared.

Obviously, the facts of the case that i even developed this thought is not health. I even used to think that there was something wrong with me and my parents and everyone were secreting it from me, tho patently it doesnt make sense extremely, because of how im plowed. Is it an integrated part of being 18? Like i have not felt ordinary, in so long. Its like “theres got to be something wrong with me.” What do i do? Im tired of moving thru this hertz, i certainly dont have it. But i know that maybe even tomorrow i might feel otherwise. I actually need your help.