What It’s Really Like to Protest in a Small Town

It’s Saturday morning at 10 a.m. I’m driving south, away from the small town where I live and toward another small town 16 times away where supporters of the Confederacy have been gathering every weekend for the last several months. It’s not the first time I’ve encountered them , nor will it be the last.

While I drive, I jostle scrambled eggs and tie sausages into my speak and slurp down a large unsweetened tea. Another message comes in through the alert organization: – looks like five, only 3 of us. Once I got to get, we will be almost even. Soon, more of us will be presented, and we will outnumber them, as we ever do.

I park out of sight, blocks away from the recognize where they like to gather. I don’t want them making photos of my license plate and finding out my home address. They show up to these demonstrates forearmed. I don’t carry a gun; I’ve never even fired one. But I won’t let them intimidate me, and their picture of violence won’t stop me apart. This is too important .

Growing up in the shadows of racism

I was born six years after the passage of the Civil Rights Act. I grew up in the ’7 0s and attended an integrated academy where I had four Black professors by the time I turned 10. My mothers offset sure of this. They had been born into the segregated South, and they grew up separated from their Black neighbors by an invisible but undoubtedly real scrim of hatred. They felt the wrongness of discrimination from their earliest childhood. My mother would tell the story, in hushed tints of reproach, of elderly Black humankinds stepping off the sidewalk as she, a little girl of five, passed by.

Even in my own childhood, though, the undercurrent of intolerance persevered. When adult conferences in the front room at my grandparents’ house threatened to take certain turns, my father silenced uncles and neighbours with an icy glance. This hushing and silencing was always espoused over open conflict in my WASP family. To howl and shout “wouldve been” unacceptably rude and trashy, but that screeching and exclaiming might also release a deluge of ugly truths–like the facts of the case that our pedigree had been complicit in slavery once upon a time…all the channel back, on all sides.

The very real threat of White supremacy

I stop in at the cafe that has been supportive to us these past several months. I’ve gotten to know the young Black woman who were responsible there a little. Before I arrived today, one of the racists–an enormous White man, known to be violent, who’d driven now from various regimes away–had come up to the door of the patronize and started motioning his huge Confederate flag in her face. She was alone.

My heart hasn’t stopped pounding since I heard what happened. Even though these beings had been terrorizing this town for months and even though they had physically criticized us more than once, I’m still scandalized. Why, though? My shock is nothing more complicated than White privilege. Everyday acts of racism are nothing brand-new to people of color.

I come in the back entrance of the cafe and grip her. She is not shaking or crying, as many White females “wouldve been”. She is fearful but likewise furious. I look out the window to see the five of them, all my age or older, standing in a sad clump at the smudge where the Confederate monument–removed months ago by the county–once resist. They look at once both menacing and utterly lumpy and unbelievable. I start to laugh. She affiliates in, and we both laugh until rends roll.

The different kinds of White parties in all countries of the world

I’ve protested in massive cities, small towns, college townships. Over epoch, I’ve realise there are a few kinds of White people.

There are the out-and-out racists, who arrive with their secreted weapons and blood-red flags and stand there unabashedly.

There are the prejudiceds in sheep’s clothing, like the unbelievably good-looking Christian minister who showed up one day to have an “open discussion” … that basically involved him repeating time and again how his family “never owned slaves” and that they were “good, hardworking people who were only defending their land.”

There are the White apologists, who write to me on Facebook or stop me on the street, assuring me that they “totally support” what I am doing, but…don’t I think that this is perhaps, you are well aware, just a little bit of overkill?

There are the White friends who want to thank me, to discuss at length how important what I am doing is, since they can’t protest. If they didn’t have teenagers, if they didn’t have this crazy job, if their lives weren’t so complicated right now, of course, they would be out there. But in the meantime, they’re just so grateful.

And then there are the White people who introduced themselves and their bodies immediately in harm’s way to try to make a difference. Here’s more on what it certainly means to be an ally in the movement toward equality.

Enrage double touchstones

Things change when George Floyd is murdered. Flows spring up in every municipality. Shrines start to topple like dominoes. Positive mutates begin rippling in all the countries . I know they’re certainly not happening in one place, though–another small town 20 minutes from my house. The sheriff there has brazenly targeted people of color for two decades. Black beings do not patronize the downtown area–at all–and the square may seem like it has been imported whole cloth from 1955. A Black friend says: “The Civil Rights movement never arrived here.”

Once again, I evidence the nauseating view of a stone tombstone to a treasonous band of traitors surrounded by compositions of heavily armed police. It’s as though this cheap, ugly, mass-produced granite slab were a living, breathing, feeling human being. I hear thinly veiled threats from prejudiceds as they go past, one older White woman loudly commenting that the huge German Shepherd she is walking “might snap.” I interpret armed White supremacists protesting in a public seat without being arrested.

If my clue had even a simple paint stirrer affixed as a handle, I would be approached by police and told that I cannot carry artilleries at a declaration. If I fail to comply–to ditch this frail wooden poke that weighs accurately one-third of an ounce–I will be arrested. This flagrant redouble guideline exists in every metropolitan, in every town.

Stick the course

A video appears on Twitter: Employees at one of the many downtown transactions owned by a city councilwoman film themselves inside the building after hours, showing off their stockpiled long grease-guns and bragging about shooting at the five-person BLM protest across the street. At another, larger rally, the sheriff throws his arm around the most vocal and observable White supremacist in township, despite the many cameras substantiating this public gesticulate of support.

During this complain, I stand in front of a Black-owned business, the only one in the entire downtown area. A White man wearing a hat, sunglasses, and star-spangled scarf over his part face gaits over from the coffeehouse( also owned by the city councilwoman) where the prejudiceds hang out and stands in front of me, arms intersected. A minute extends. I do not move away, but begin–low, almost under my breath–to sing a revelation song about suffering and keeping the faith. After three minutes, he moves away.

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Jessica Harrison is a pseudonym to protect the author’s identity.

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